by Heidi Belleau (Goodreads Author)This macho jock has a crooked little secret.
College hockey player Austin Puett is in trouble. Unless he starts treating his flamboyantly gay roommate with respect, he’ll lose his room and his job at Rear Entrance Video. But Austin’s got a not-so-straight secret of his own: nothing turns him on more than insults implying he’s gay—even though he’s definitely not!—and all his old coping methods have stopped working.
Pure desperation drives him to rent a Mischievous Pictures porn flick about straight men tricked into servicing Puck, a male dominant. Instead of letting off steam, though, it just leaves him craving more, more, more, and suddenly, Austin finds himself at Mischievous Pictures Studios for an audition. After all, you can be Gay For Pay and still be straight . . . right?
But meeting Liam Williams, the real person behind Puck, confuses Austin even more. Liam really seems to like him as a person, and Austin likes him back. And while Gay For Pay’s okay, what does it make Austin if he still wants Liam when the cameras aren’t rolling?
Genre: MM BDSM/Kink
I got mixed thoughts on this book. I will start with that this is the third book in a series and I did NOT read the first two. Which I feel hindered my experience with this story.
Here we have Austin a straight man who is very confused because he gets turned on when he gets degraded.
Austin is one of those stereo typical put your foot in your mouth jocks when it comes to 'gay' but he still has gay roommates and works at a gay video store. Where he finds some porn that helps with his kink.
After his porn experience he meets his real life porn hero and wants to relive some of the domination that he sees on the video with 'Master Puck'.
With this new domination, Austin works through his kink confusion to open up a new door to emotional confusion.
Once Puck and Austin work through their issues than BAM! Here is where the story got good for me."... Things aren't as black and white as you think they are. It's not like there's a tiny island of straightness, in the middle of an ocean of gay, and if you so much as dip your toe - or get splashed by a wave or whatever - then, that's it, you're gay forever.... "
Even though it is so not my kink, I did like the idea of it, but for some reason it fell flat at parts and just didn't grab me. I was able to read the whole book no problem and was into the story but it took me a bit to get into but what I did love was the ending and the last part of the book. Here is where the heart of the matter comes to a head and hearts are on the line. I think if I read the other two books in the series, I would have connected more with Austin and his dilemma. Because I missed the background and growth of Austin it took longer to enjoy this book.
3 Not So Straight Thumbs up!